Monday, February 21, 2011

IVF #1 CD 30 "Welcome"

Welcome ICLWers. To play a little catch up (I think my sidebar is out of date):
M and I have been TTC since the end of 2008. I had a septum removed, two injection IUIs and right now I am 11dp5dt on our first IVF. We find out tomorrow!! Technically we are not supposed to find out until Thursday (14dp5dt) but, I was able to convince the nurses to schedule me earlier because I am going out of town. I'm glad I don't have to wait even just those 2 days more.
I haven't been this tempted to pee on a stick for a very long time. But I won't, I'll just wait until tomorrow, jumping every time my phone rings.
Its frustrating right now because it seems like there are so many decisions we are trying to make right now that depend on whether I am pregnant or not. There isn't a rush to make the decisions but, they are constant reminders looming over us.
At the end of my IUIs I was pretty sure I was going to get negatives. I didn't feel pregnant at all. I was sick at first from the hormones but, then I got better. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else. Right now, I am totally unsure - but leaning towards a negative. I still feel a little crappy and have bad cramping on and off. I know I can't trust my body but, I am not feeling it. Hopefully, I am wrong and, it's just me trying to prepare myself emotionally. There isn't really any benefit trying to analyze it right now. I just need to wait until tomorrow when I have actual results....
Sometimes tomorrow seems like so far away.

13 comments:

  1. This infertility roller coastser is hard, and I hope you get your much deserved BFP soon!

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  2. Hi I'm here from ICLW! Just wanted to say good luck tomorrow and I hope you get that BFP!!

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  3. Good luck tomorrow!!! I have everything crossed!!!

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  4. I know its hard to think its positive, but there is every hope it will be. Good luck and I really hope you get a positive. And if not, lean on me, I know what it feels like so hope I can help, but here's hoping its a fantastic day for you tomorrow!

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  5. The last day of the two week wait is the WORST, I think. Wishing the time to go fast for you, and hoping for fantastic news for you tomorrow!
    -Kristen from www.buckupbuttercup.net

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  6. Almost there! Hope you can get some sleep tonight, I will send prayers your way!
    Brice (want2bmom.blogspot.com)

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  7. Hi, thanks for your comment on my blog. I have no idea how you were able to hold out to 11dp5dt without POAS -that is amazing. I bought internet cheapies just to indulge myself without feeling too guilty. My clinic checks beta 11dp3dt and I'm worried it's not long enough...yours sounds like you would definitely know by then.

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  8. How exciting, Wishing you all the best that you get a BFP.

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  9. So excited for you! I hope you are wrong with leaning negative. The day of my beta I felt like AF was around the corner except for the little milk ducts becoming more pronounced. That was the only thing that made me think maybe...and I was! I hope you get that same awesome phone call!

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  10. Keeping everything crossed for your beta!

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  11. Stopping in for ICLW...hoping you get your BFP today!! Good luck! (BTW - the only cycle I didn't POAS was our IVF cycle that resulted in our positive. Hoping it will be the same for you!!)

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  12. Thanks for the comment on my blog.

    I hate that limbo feeling when it comes to planning life. We a stackable washer and a drier because our laundry room is too small. Right now, I have to shimmy around one to get to other. I've told my husband that I won't be able to do that once I have a pregnant belly, so I figure, at any given point, we'll have 3-4 months warning to make that purchase. So, not critical, but still annoying!

    Fingers crossed for you tomorrow!

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  13. Hi from ICLW! I hate the wait. You are very strong to not pee on a stick, though! Kudos to you! Will be peeking back and hoping you got your bfp!!

    ICLW #50

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