17w0d

I had my 16 week appt with the OB this week. Everything looks good as far as we could see. She wasn't at all worried about my weight gain (3 lbs). The hearts are both still beating. We couldn't tell at all if they were girls or boys, so we are still going with girls. I think my sister was more disappointed about that than we were. She really wants to know 100% before my shower on Tuesday. The OB and I had a long chat about delivery. Pretty much M and I need to decide if we want to do a vaginal birth (if possible) or go ahead with a C-section. No decision right away but just thinking about it. I'm still leaning towards vaginal if at al possible.
I've been feeling a lot better lately. But that being said today I am exhausted and enjoying plenty of round ligament pain. My feet have been bothering me some but as long as I put them up occasionally I'm okay.
Anyway, my plane to Utah is boarding! Gotta go. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

16w0d "Feed Me"

I have finally got my appetite back - mostly. I started being hungry all the time last weekend, but then I got this crappy cold and lost all desire for food again. The last remnants of my cough and stuffy nose are lingering, but I do feel much better. And I am now eating like crazy. I'll spare the details. Partly, I am just hungry. Partly, I was a little concerned that two days ago I weighed 3 lbs more than I did when I got pregnant. I'm now up to 4-5 lbs. I plan on bringing this up with my OB next week (the appointment is finally coming around - switching from 1 week appts to 4 weeks appts makes it a really long wait). I don't really know much about when I should start to be gaining weight, how much, etc. We'll see what she says. I'm very ready for this appointment. In the mean time, I'll continue eating to my heart's content.
Disclaimer. I think that I feel like I am eating more than I really am. I eat lots of meals and snacks but my stomach doesn't take much to fill up these days so I end up gifting about half of my plate to M. Which means I am hungry 3-4 hours later for a snack. So I think I just feel like a pig... that and my stomach suddenly started to poke out!

15w1d "The M-word Day"

Certainly being pregnant this year has dramatically changed my Mother's Day experience. Last year, I hated it. I was trying so hard not to cry and think about what I wanted so badly while the world celebrated those lucky women who had it. It was I think harder than any other holiday. I don't want to say much about it today, I think it has mostly been said on all of your blogs. I had a crappy day but it had nothing to do with Mother's Day. I got a terrible cold yesterday so I was just plain sick. All congested and gross. However, that is not what I want to say either. I was just reading on M's cousin's blog (a totally fertile mother of 2) and was so touched by her post. She posted today to infertiles - expressing understanding and ending with love and hope. It was awesome and totally made me smile. It was the most perfect and touching Mother's Day post I have seen.

I hope that everyone made it through today and has a great week ahead!

14w3d "Thoughts"

Whatever calendar schedule you follow, I am now in the second trimester. Everyone keeps telling me that this is the best time of the pregnancy (yes, EVERYONE...). I am feeling a lot better but still vomiting 2-3 times a week (isn't it nice that this is improvement). My appetite has started picking up and I seem to be in this weird state in which I feel like eating all the time but have a couple bites and am done. I haven't really experienced any cravings or aversions - at least not any more than before I was pregnant. I either feel like eating or not. I have had a couple times where I was pretty set on what meal I wanted. For example, I really wanted grilled tuna fish sandwiches for dinner the other day. I had to buy pretty much all of the ingredients because I am usually squimish about tuna fish (this is about the only way I will eat it). But I was determined (craving? I don't know).
I have mixed feelings about changing from weekly ultrasounds to monthly ones. I miss seeing my babies and making sure they are okay. I have had some cramping on and off which I think is normal, but I sometimes just want to know that they are okay. I have enjoyed not making the long drive though. I am counting down until my next appointment which is 2 weeks from today.
I'm still not showing, although Sunday night my friend was trying to convince me that I was. It was less convincing after multiple people at church were commenting that I didn't look pregnant, especially not with twins. I'm still okay not showing. I haven't bought any clothes yet so I'm glad I still mostly fit into mine.
We are going to a family reunion with M's family for the rest of the week. I think it will be pretty fun. It is not an extended family thing, just M's parents and his brothers and sister. I'm a little bummed that I won't be able to participate in a lot of the activities and games, as there will be lots of athletics and such things. I usually have a better time playing that sitting and watching. We might go boating. Anyone ever heard of that being a problem? In the end, I'd rather be pregnant than participate though, so I will be sitting. It will probably be too hot for me to want to play anyway.
That reminds me of a conversation I was having with my mom the other day. She was asking how I was feeling so I told her: tired, nauseous, with a sore back. Her response: "Be careful what you wish for", with a giggle. I immediately jumped on that. I am not regretting being pregnant at all. Yes, sometimes, I feel like crap. But guess what. I'm pregnant. That is way more important to me. I would not trade it back. I wasn't even really complaining, I was just stating how I felt. My sister sometimes responds the same way and it really bothers me. I love being pregnant. I don't enjoy all the symptoms but I finally have life inside me. I think it is hard for them to understand how I feel about this pregnancy. They got pregnant easily. My mom had 7 pretty easy pregnancies (except for a miscarriage). My one sister, L, has had 5 hard pregnancies and my other sister, R, has had 3 hard pregnancies. R hates being pregnant and it doesn't seem like she really loves being a mom. They have very different pregnancy and conception experiences and I don't think that they have realized that fully. I mean, I don't think they have realized that the difference in our ability to conceive greatly impacts our thoughts and emotions during pregnancy. Working on upping the communication level...
Anyway, enough random snippets and soapbox.